I’m staring at a blank page, as the cursor blinks. Intimidating me, daring me. I feel way over my head, out of my league. I wonder, Why on earth am I doing this? Do I really have something worth saying in this place?
We’ve all been there. Faced with a situation where we just don’t know what to say, or how to say it. Afraid to go to that job interview, breech that sensitive topic, speak in front of all those people, make a new friend.
In those moments we meet our fears face to face. Our fears of failing- that we’ll try and everyone will watch us fall flat on our face. Afraid we’ll say the wrong words and ruin everything. Afraid that when we expose our inward heart, stepping out from behind our protective walls, we’ll hear laughter. That we’ll be criticized. Nobody needs that when we are our own best critics.
One of my moments of truth has been starting this blog. Fear says to me, you’re a little nobody. You’re not that good of a writer. You’re just a tiny drop in an ocean of words. What is so special about you?
In that moment of truth, facing my fears head on, I can surrender, or I can rebuke them. Just like you. Are we little nobodies? Let’s meet fear with truth…
- God thought we were important enough that He imagined us, created us in our mother’s wombs and brought us into this world for a purpose. I’d say that makes us pretty significant!
- Not only that, but Jesus loved us enough to die on the cross in our place. Is there any greater love than this? Any greater testament to our worth?
These two truths can break every chain, demolish every roadblock, and set our souls free. We aren’t nobody. We are somebody. Somebody God loves, somebody He can empower. And if we hide our light away where no one can see it, we hide a beauty the world desperately needs.
Can we deny our Creator and refuse to use the gifts He’s given us? Yes we can. We can say, “No thank you, God. I’ll pass!” But we’ll miss out on blessings we never could have imagined. Miss out on meeting and touching people we never would have otherwise. Always wonder, what if?
What is a safe life anyway, hidden away from criticism and rejection, from people? It’s safe, but also empty and dull. Do we want to keep hiding in the shadows, or can we step out into the light of day?
It’s a fact that I am in an ocean of words. But I am special because no one else has ever been me. Had this exact perspective, these thoughts. I am unique and uniquely gifted.
I meditate on these things. Can I be brave enough, bold enough, to share my words? Share the very embodiment of my heart?
The cursor blinks.
And this time, it is inviting me, welcoming me. Inviting me to live boldly beyond my fears. Welcoming me to the place where freedom lives.
But perfect love casteth out all fear…
-1 John 4:18
Have you battled fear in sharing your heart? Have you experienced giving or receiving words that changed a life?
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